Ghost of Corporate Future

Today I had a long hard think about my future. It so happens that it one of my university lessons we talked about how to get into the industry of being a script writer and this may or may not have made me begin this thought process. 

I began to realise that I do not have that much to show of my work. I Need to focus. Write my ideas down and just bloody elaborate and finish them! I always seem to have many different ideas floating around, most are probably shit, but I have no idea unless I try to do something with them. Even if I just write a treatment. I mean I'm not going to get anywhere by just saying to people "Oh yeah, well I've got this idea, blah blah blah" Who want's to listen to that?

I find that the more I think about my future the dimer it becomes. Do I really think I have something that thousands of other people don't? I know that's not the right frame of mind to be in, I really should be thinking "I am better then most, I do offer something new, fresh, zappy, buzzwords etc" But instead I sit around and do fuck all. I watch films and think "Oooh I'd like to write something like that." Will I? Doubt it. I've got a new idea of a girl aged about 15ish who grows up in 50's New York and her journey into "womanhood" Oh and she likes to do magic. Will I write it? Doubt it. Why not? Is it because I don't know what it is like to a 15 year old girl? Maybe....Is it because I wasn't born in the 50's? Possibly...Is it because that's as far as I've gotten with the story and that at the moment that is just a character and not any actual plot? Could be..

I find that I need something to aim towards. I want to be able to say I've done something with my life that other people may have taken notice of, instead of just slip through the cracks into the oblivion that is obscurity. I'm not saying I want super stardom, even knowing that people out there in the world (who aren't my mum or someone) is reading this. Words I've decided to put into a particular order to form what some people would loosely call a blog post. 

So hopefully watch this space. I know I keep saying I will write more blogs but honestly I do want to. They may not all be good but it's a way to get something out there. I may at times post excerpts of scripts I'm working on for feedback or just to show what I am up to. So hopefully I may see you in the new future. And speaking of futures, let's hope it's a good one.