Disconnection

So I've got three weeks left of uni and so much to do. I know I'm not the only person either so I shouldn't be moaning... But I am! At the time of writing this in on a train back from home, where I popped to for a whopping three hours today. I just don't feel quite settled. Planning my day by the hour, oh I don't think I'm doing anything tomorrow at 3-4 I can colour grade.

This isn't a healthy way to be. I don't even know why I'm writing this down it might be because I don't feel like I can express myself correctly to anybody. That could be because I like to keep myself quite closed. Guess that's a problem I've caused for myself.

I feel drained. And I know that it's only going to get worse in the next three weeks. After that I'll be done. Time to get a job and be successful and earn lots of money... Easy right? Please say yes.

Anyway I feel like I have gone on for too long and just been depressing. So I'll go and try to cheer up. Thanks for listening

Wake up you sleepyhead!

So I've found it harder and harder to get up in the mornings. I mean I am one of those people that does enjoy a good sleep, but I also know that if I sleep in half of the day then I'm being lazy and that I'm basically wasting my life. Take today for instance, I didn't have a late night or anything yet I struggled to get up any time before 12ish. Is this becuase I know that if I get up I have to do work as I have a deadline tomorrow? Or is it because I don't have much to get up for. My weekend has consisted of doing nothing, Ok I went to see the musical Once on saturday and that was great. But afterwards I came back to an empty flat, yesterday (sunday) I got up and spent the entire day in the lounge trying to do work, nobody around in the flat again and the same goes for today. Do I need something to force me to get up? I want to be able to wake up and get on with what needs to be done.

I guess I'm just lacking motivation. What happens if I do x,y and z? Probably nothing..which is why I should make something happen. Tomorrow I plan to set my alarm for 8:30 and I want to up and out of bed by 9:30 at the latest. I am going to finish my essay and then I am going to get on with something else that is productive...Oh and I am going to leave the flat, I think I need to get some fresh air